The last seven months have been one wild ride. Maybe I’ll write about it someday when I can be more philosophical about the situation, but right now I’m simply relieved and delighted to have found some cool people to kick it with, and a much more stable living situation.

A big part of stability for me is electricity on demand. You have no idea how frustrating it is being unable to keep devices charged and usable until you can’t, and then pile the monotropism on top of it. I was not a happy van-life camper.

Now, I can pursue my passions without running out of power every couple of hours. I can play video games for longer than 45 minutes at a time. I can work on Blender project without keeping an eye on the generator’s power.

AND… since I do care about the planet, I’m still utilizing my solar panels and generator daily. But I also have an AC connection that keeps things running when solar isn’t doing the job.

I’ve also felt creatively inspired, so I’m working in Blender again. It’s going to take time to produce anything as the past year (12 years… almost 13) has really changed me. I don’t want to carry anything forward from past projects, really, as they weren’t mindful enough. “Mindful” is one of those buzzwords I kind of hate, but it’s accurate. I’m now more worried about exploring the next level, rather than recreating mediocrity just to have something to do with my brain.

Within the next month or so, I do plan on renting a new OSGrid region, and I don’t care if it takes me the rest of my life to fill it up; I’m going to enjoy the process. Now that I don’t have upstairs neighbors stomping on the floor all the time, and vacuuming ceramic tiles. Now that I don’t live in a condo owned by a special needs trust determined to destroy my life. Now that I’m finally rid of the Death Troll I once referred to as “mom”.

Now that I’m mostly looking at my seething, soul-devouring rage in the rear view mirror.

I don’t think I can package up all the bad experiences and just … forget them. I also don’t think I can live my life wallowing in them. Processing takes time, and I can do the work consciously with the same up-leveling as I put into my creativity.

I’m also back to DJ sets. I don’t care so much about those as an artistic statement. I’m going to keep trying to improve my skills, but mostly for me it’s about the dopamine rush. Plus, as much as I might feel renewed and invigorated in spirit, I’m still rolling up on my 60th birthday. Sometimes, I just dance from a sitting position.

I’ll probably start updating my shoutcast page with times and new sets in the next week or so.

And that is the most pertinent news from the world of me. I hope all of you are doing well, and that the MacGuffin you currently chase becomes yours in the immediate future.